Honestly,
that is a very difficult question to ask. For many, no matter how
much notice we get, there is no way we can truly prepare for
something like that. Even if the person is 110 years old, no one can
really say they actually prepared when that person dies.
I
say this, because a friend of ours, Rose Maslauskas, died last week.
She was 30 years old. She had been in and out of the hospital for
over a year. She was in the hospital since the New Years--for over 4
months. She was having heart problems, she had dialysis, and so many
things. She even had a feeding tube. And no matter how much we wanted
it not to be so, many of us knew better that time was running out.
Perhaps it is because we love the person so much that we truly cannot
or will not actually prepare for that person to die because we cannot
imagine our lives without that person.
For
me, I've seen so much death that I often think that I am prepared to
know that someone going to die-- even someone who is so young. I know
this because I once had a front row seat for the death of a 2 month
old. I actually held her warm corpse. She was my cousin, Jayana
McGraw. She was hooked up to so many machines, and we were told that
she would not survive the night, that she would die from a stroke or
heart attack. Even with the best of care even, she still could not be
saved. Seeing her like that, especially considering that some of my
relatives died within the moment's notice, and my family buried two
of my uncles in less than a year, I still find myself mourning even
when I know someone is likely to die.
I
can only hope that I would have the strength and knowledge to prepare
all of my loved ones for my passing. Before you ask, I have good
health, and I'm not planning to go anywhere anytime soon. However,
even though they find it difficult to believe or simply do not want
to believe, I know I will not die old. I know that I probably will
not be fortunate enough to even see 50. This is because I too have
had a lifetime of health problems. And that's why I tried to live as
if I'm preparing myself. That's why I attend church regularly, pray
regularly, read the Bible, try to accomplish lifelong dreams, and
love and respect those around me. That way, not only will I be
prepared to die, but it might help loved ones be a little bit more
prepared. That is what I put my face in Christ, and I believe in him
and believe that He died for my sin. This way, all of my loved ones
who also believe as I do can see will have be assured that not only
will I be with the Lord, but they will see me again as they are with
the Lord. Therefore, friends, if you do not yet believe that Christ
has died for you, it is not too late. As I'm sure you will learn from
my friend Rose and my cousin, you never know when your time will come
to leave this world. That's why, even if you can't be prepared for
the death the other people, you can at least be prepared for your
own.
Rest in peace, Rose!
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